As the days pass, the countdown to my birthday slowly begings. The big 21, the first step into adulthood and the real world. Friends who have already pass the two-one all say the same thing, "Its all downhill from there. Your life just zooms pass you from then on, and there's no turning back." I don't know if that's a good thing or not, but I'm trying to make my interpretation a good one & hopefully remain positive about the whole thing. But is there really that big of a deal on turning 21?

Okay, so you are legally considered an adult, and in the States it means being legal to alcohol consumption. But I'm not American. I did the whole "Clubbing, Smoking (ok maybe not smoking) and Driving" scene 3 years ago. Other than being able to legally sign documents without your parents' consent, and being seen as an "adult" in the public eye, is there really much of a difference when you cross the line from being 20 to 21?

I simply feel that its been a long time coming, and the life's journey is taking on a different route, more scenic perhaps, on top of that - added with a whole lotta junk too. Exciting - maybe. Over the years I've gained more knowledge and strength as compared to when I was a teeny bopper, but I don't feel any different now than before. Are you supposed to feel some sort of a tingle the moment the clock strikes 12? I'll probably have to get myself ready at 11.57 to give myself a 3 minute headstart/preparation. Eh?

Everyone's been asking me what I'd want for my birthday. Apparently turning 21 entitles you to being able to request for more expensive gifts. Either that, or the numbers 2 and 1 put together in that sequence seems to entice people into being comfortable with letting go with a bit more money than normal occasions. Would it be too much for me to request for a Lambourghini?

Somehow I think turning 21 is just slightly overrated and thrown out of proportion. I don't want expensive gifts, I don't want lavish materialistic items. I don't want anything other than the presence of all my dear friends and family, all rounded up together for a good meal that satisfies everyones stomachs and tastebuds. Unfortunately for me, I know that it is one gift I'd request for that I couldn't receive.

To my other friends also turning 21 later in the year, I apologize for not being able to be there to celebrate your special occasion with you. You're all in my heart no matter how far apart we are & that's what matters. I miss you all so dearly.