It astounds me when I look at think about the life you lead now, and how intoxicated with happiness you are. I am perplexed when I think about how glorious life is for you after the pain you managed to cause. I'm piqued you could so easily forget the pain you inflicted on another's life for your selfish gains, yet only one person is left hurt. Almost everyday I'm struggling to rid my mind of the nightmares you caused me to go through, only for you to have turned around and point the fault finger at me.

After more than 2 years, I'm still affected, I'm still hurt. In my mind I'm this little girl coiled up in a corner of a room too afraid of anything, but yet life goes on. I could easily say you destroyed my life, and to a certain extent you did, but I'm better than that, and I'm better than you. What you put me through on a daily basis could only make me stronger. I just wish you knew that the actions you thought were innocently done simply because of love, could and has done permanent damage. They weren't innocent and you weren't stupid. I wish you were, then it would be so much easier to move on from the pain.

I hear of stories of you and your life, not because I want to, but because I don't really have a choice. I see pictures of you, and I try to wish you all the best. But it's not fair. You don't deserve it, and you don't deserve my blessings or forgiveness. You dragged me to hell and left me to crawl out on my own. I wish the people around you knew.

You manage to keep up the facade of an angel to those around you. But deep inside stems a boy who's full anger and hatred because he is scared. Scared of nothing but fights nothing anyway. Your family thinks the world of you, and they look at me like I hurt the best person there is. They used to smile but now they smirk. You keep it that way, you like the facade you live in. I wish they knew.

You don't deserve to not know what you did, to be able to brush it aside like it never happened at all. You don't deserve a happy life where ignorance is bliss. You're a liar and a cheat. I wish I could tell you that straight in your face but i won't. I'm bigger and better than you.

No apology, no remorse, no nothing. You gave me none of those but I wished you the best in life.

I just wish you knew.