love only like lovers can

How many times do you watch a movie, only to come out feeling disappointed and empty? These movie makers create such alluring and fantastic trailers that attract you immediately, only for the entire movie to be a whole lot worse than you expected. And then there are the trailers that are basically the whole movie, and all the good parts have already been shown. It's like looking forward to desert after a good meal, only for it to be all sold out. I hate that empty feeling when I leave the cinema, makes me feel cheated.

Recently went to watch Gabriel. Looked like a pretty interesting movie with a great plot. I mean, it's about Angels who fight with deadly weapons and know martial arts (sorta). That in itself is interesting cuz Angels are all about peace and love and all that jazz. There was no plot whatsoever. So many things about it just didn't make any sense at all. Being a film student, I get that not all movies are supposed to make sense. But there has to be a good build up that leads to something, right?

I will admit the visuals in that movie were pretty damn good. It's not easy to film so many things with minimal light, that's of course, unless most of it is computer graphics, as most film makers like to use nowadays. Another thing that disappoints me. I'm a traditional film girl. I love using film as compared to digital, there's such a world of a difference in the quality of the production. I guess we gotta keep up with the times, eh?

That's life though innit? You go through something believing in its entirety, led on through such a fantastic plot, only for it to completely fizzle out to a complete nothing at the end. Girls mostly, want this fairytale life for themselves. You know, the whole Prince Charming she-bang type thing. I'll fill you in on a little secret girls, it's total BS. I'm sure you all know that already, just had to state it for the purpose of.

Perhaps I've got it wrong, life is a movie. I for one, always say my life is one of the most dramatic soap operas you can possibly come across. The Days of Our Lives, The Bold and Beautiful, General Hospital...all that put together could be my life. It adds that bit of spice to life I suppose, but after a while it gets extremely tiresome. I would have to say the one thing I'm absolutely sick of is being lied to. Time and time again, there's an outpour of lies and I never find out the truth till it's too late. Even when I do discover a lie, somehow I manage to forgo it all and forgive the person. What an idiot, I know. I'm a fool whose trust is always being taken advantage of.

I don't understand it, even when you give someone an ultimatum to tell the truth, they still lie! Why?? Do so many people have the traits of a compulsive liar? I swear it's a mental disease. The extents of these lies are out of this world. Of course, they range from white lies to lies that could totally change your life. How can anyone be with a person, knowing all they've basically done is lie? It's like your entire being is a lie. Ridiculous. Preposterous. These people should just gather together, and have a mass suicide. Or lie to each other till they kill themselves.

Some rather common lies are normally about ex-girlfriends/boyfriends, monetary issues, girls/guys they have a crush on i.e. the people they claim to not flirt with, health, physical proximity with someone of the other gender, otherwise known as cheating to some, photos they shouldn't have......oh the list just goes on and on. Maybe that's just my list. If I were to list everything, this post would never end. Haha. And I'm only 23. Whoopee. If i were a hit(wo)man, a lot of people would be dead by now.

There are so many ways I could think of to get revenge. They say revenge is sweet, yet I've never had a taste. There are so many things I could do to ruin the lives of people who ruined mine, but I guess there would be no point. What goes around comes around, right? Why is it that it only comes to me and never goes? Does that even make sense?

I wish all you cheaters, liars, and little fuckers would just do the world a favour and rid yourselves from socialising with the rest of us.

demented sinner, that's you

Say goodnight and go.

Skipping beats, blushing cheeks I am struggling
Daydreaming, bed scenes in the corner café
And then i'm left in bits recovering tectonic tremblings
You get me every time

Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go

Follow you home, you've got your headphones on and you're dancing
Got lucky, beautiful shot you taking everything off watch the curtains wide open
Then you fall in the same routine flicking through the TV relaxed and reclining
And you think you're alone...

Why d'ya have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you
Must you make me laugh so much
It's bad enough we get along so well
Say goodnight and go

One of these days, you'll miss your train and come stay with me
We'll have drinks and talk about things, any excuse to stay awake with you
You'll sleep here, i'll sleep there, but then the heating may be down again
at my convenience
we'd be good, we'd be great together.

Say goodnight and go,
why's it always always
goodnight and go
Darling not again
Goodnight and go